Ahh.. Man its so hard. Idk. what to do anymore. its just so confusing. its like i dont want to do anything about it cuz i already said something, But now its like "I think i have to do it you know." its something that i noe i helped Fuck up for everyone.I mean for one if it wasnt for my stupidity then maybe just maybe things would be picture okay-ness you know. but yea. I mean i was one of the reasons. i guess the only thing i can do. and the only thing i know how to do. and plus its the only thing that i was raised better on.. i mean its like for the good of everyone. I mean im starting to see something that i hadnt seen for a long time now. you know. its like. well actually just to clear things up, its like... I said something Long time ago. It was something i meant... and it's something that i didnt keepmy word on you know. and i feel bad enough as it is. that im just pushing people away. ahh.. idk.. but i think and im sorry. But im going to go back on my word. half the time i dont think for myself. And i saw what could happen when i dont think for myself. Im learning.. from my mistakes. I know i know. it may seem so dull and shet but as long as i have a drive to do something..then i'll do it. I dont know if it'll make a difference but its worth a shot. idk. hm. not to mention my grades Suck.lol. okay not something to be proud about but yea. ahh.. um..Roque thinks imma drop out.. lol. dumb. but yea. who knows. my mom thinks imma go to college.. Ha. Who knows. And i think Imma live to be 21... HeHa... Who knows. Idk. half of my future is not even in my hands.. all i can hope for is the best.. and hope that during my time here.. i can be all i can be.. .. well anyways. ahh.. my hair tie is being abused. its turing here and there. and just everywhere. its not making sense. and i feel as if its going to snap, okay imma look for ongs and change them no time for lyrics. so yea. shootz. ashley And a one and a two.. and a stretch...

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Always and Forever... These Feelings for you.. I wish they can stay with me... I'll always be truueee.. Everyday love me ur own special way... lol..okay enough with the lovie loveness en shet. Idk. Im not in love if thats what ur wondering. Idk. Am i? just joking. Ahh..Life now en days.. eww it sounds like im old. idk. Im almost 15.. ah now thats old. just joking. I still have another year before the full stage of wrinkes en gray hair. ah.. well anyways... HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULiE!!!! Its ur birthday happy happy birthday!!.. go julie!!! okay well yea.. hm.. well yup i guess thats it... is anyone out there in Love? and if you are can you tell me what it feels like? Idk im having a mental break down. PROJECTS!!! shoot!!! Ashley

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watching: My old BasketBall Game listening to: Hope and Get Right mood: Happy Okay Not so Good Hey there everyone. Well actually i dont have this site on lock down cuz im still tryin to figure things out. Kinda confusing. Hm. In a way its better than Xanga but then its kinda not. Idk. well anyways. today is Sunday not much going on here.Just tryin to figure things out like i said. Hm. well i guess this is it.Julies Birthday is Tomorrow. I feelkinda bad cuz we're not doing anything as of now. Ashley

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Whodi Who i got this site on Lock Down. Actually this is pretty cool. I mean its better than xanga for realz.. hm. well yup. Damn how do i get the boxies to go to the right side? idk how. Allans own is on the right and my own is one the left. well anyways. i went to the mass thingy en yea. uh huh. saw people. damn. those people there. no offense. were mamahlao ti for reals. I mean like after the prosession yea. They like went to Eat en it wasnt even time yet en yea the priest didnt even Bless the table. And like when it was time to eat it was like WHOA. My mom was like these people act like they never ate before. I mean there we're people Stealing/Taking FOOD TRAYS off the table and out the door in a Snap. And then there were people that Cut. And there we people holding up the line to PlBalutan Bula ates like damn. And like the amko' were like w8ing in the back and shet. And then the lady in front of us had her (2) kids run back to the family outside to give them PLATES of FOOD and then they'd run back in and take more food out and shet. And i felt so bad for this one amko' who was like standing there inbetween the table talking to a friend when a little kid runs behind him and knocks over the salad dressing (the orange one) and it goes onto the amko' and like everywhere. Tssk tssk... honestly.w ell its like 12.10 en i better go toSLEEp. shoot shoot. Ashley Rice is Yuk

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